Being a PCV has been more of an emotional roller coaster than I could have ever imagined. In America, or what I refer to as my "real" life, I considered myself to be a pretty stable and consistent adult. Ethiopia has brought out the scrappy 9-year old Bridget I used to be. Where I would pick fights, throw sass around and spend a lot of time in my bedroom dreaming about who I would be when I grew up. Well at 26 I didn't expect myself to become so familiar with niave and irratic inner child, but my life here has led me to discover that in order to survive living in chaos you must be insane yourself. Below is a brief documentary of a 24-hour period I experience recently.
2 June 2013
6:00 pm: Paid $9 for my 1 hour full
body massage
Feeling: calm and content
Thinking: money well spent
6:15: Mistook a monkey to be an
alley cat
Feeling: surprised and enchanted
Thinking: Ethiopia is still awesome
8:30: In the middle of an unusual
and very detailed dinner conversation of how the 7th day Adventists
started in Ethiopia 3 generations ago.
Feeling: Amused and informed
Thinking: That pizza was delicious
10:00 Almost asleep except for the
neighbor’s subwoofers and the barking dog. Soft spanish guitar in my headphones
lulls me to sleep
Feeling: too tired to yell at the
neighbor
Thinking: I wish I could find my
earplugs
7:00am Got caught walking in the early morning
rainstorm and enjoyed the company of the street dogs
Feeling: carefree and nostalgic
Thinking: Puppy season is the best time
of year in Ethiopia
8:00 received a long distance call from
my dad and watched Amanda serve the sassy waitress a piece of her mind (no it
was not on the menu)
Feeling: loved and homesick,
Thinking: Amanda is serious about her
breakfast!
9:00 Paid 15% of my monthly salary to fill
my propane tank; now I have 25kg/55lbs on my back and 2 buses worth of travel
before I can get it home
Feeling: Poor and apprehensive
Thinking: I wish I had a private vehicle
10: Saw a man defecating on the
side of the road. Rejected bus creeper’s attempts to initiate me in conversation.
Feeling: violated and nauseous
Thinking: Ethiopia’s development goals
are highly ambitious
11: After moving my heavy propane tank
from 4 different vehicles I’m on the last leg in Shashamene. My onerous tank become
the subject of controversy in the bus station: confusing argument in 4
different spoken languages leads to aggressive behavior in belligerent macho
men and ends with me physically assaulting the figure of contention by way of
my palm across his face.
Feeling: adrenaline and dissapointment
Thinking: I wish I could communicate
more effective verbally than physically
2pm: Arrived at home in time to miss
the rainstorm and in time to enjoy a cup of coconut hot chocolate and the first
grapefruit I’ve eaten in 8 months.
Feeling: relieved, introverted,
exhausted
Thinking: Home is the only place I can
have privacy and peace
4pm: Skyped with Joe and counted down
the days until his arrival
Feeling: Adored
Thinking: August 19th
can’t come soon enough